SHE CAME IN THROUGH THE BATHROOM WINDOW

A chronicling of bullshit by Emily: an Oregonian, a lover of cats, baking, and horror; but above all, a thespian.
Fiona Apple

—Frosty The Snowman

suicideblonde:

Fiona Apple - Frosty the Snowman 

heymonster:

Ellen Ripley, Our Lady of Survival.
When the odds aren’t in our favor and the cards are stacked against us give us the strength to fight for our lives, face our fears and survive. 

heymonster:

Ellen Ripley, Our Lady of Survival.

When the odds aren’t in our favor and the cards are stacked against us give us the strength to fight for our lives, face our fears and survive. 

(via theshriekmaster)

The New York Times Magazine Hollywood Issue
Heroines - Quvenzhané Wallis (x)

(via memory-hole)

Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get up inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They don’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness so a simple phrase like ‘Maybe we should just be friends’ or ‘How very perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working it’s way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love.

Neil Gaiman (The Kindly Ones)

(Source: quote-book, via kateordie)

IN THE PAST FEW MONTHS:

  • Broken up with my last partner of 5 months. We remain friends.
  • But, met somebody new. A lovely woman named Sydney who is now my girlfriend. 
  • Have made a home at my co-op, the Oxford House, with 38 other girls.
  • Declared as a theater major. I will be working towards becoming some sort of upper level teacher/instructor in the field. 
  • Gained a few pounds. Freshman 15 isn’t a joke, folks. 
  • Made a butt-load of new friends. 
  • Discovered that weed (drugs in general) and college don’t go together. 
  • Realized the importance of my family and my friends at home.
  • Have grown out my hair. Not by choice, but anyways, it’s long now.
  • Gotten into Breaking Bad and American Horror Story: Asylum. 
  • Learned an immense amount about all the subjects I’ve taken this past Fall term. 
  • Once again learned not to judge a book by its cover. 
  • Above all, I learned that a transition like going to college for the first time is a big deal. For those of you who don’t know, I’m a freshman at the Oregon State University. I live on campus. I dealt with a great deal of sadness, confusion, and anger. I’m still dealing with it. However, I’ve grown a great amount in the past few months and I’m looking forward to my continued growth and progress.
I have take a vow to be more festive this December. Thus, the Christmas tree pin on my shirt. 

I have take a vow to be more festive this December. Thus, the Christmas tree pin on my shirt. 

Ode to a blog un-blogged,

Dear Tumblr, 

I have missed you so during these past few months. I thought college would bring us closer but alas, we have been distanced. I miss you and the infinite scrolling I am able to do upon your pages and pages of images. Winter break will take hold of my life very soon- I have just two more exams to complete before the luxury of vacation will greet me. We will reunite soon, dearest Tumblr. 

Your long lost addict, 

Emily

Ready? I’ve been in Europe for almost three months now and it has finally fully dawned on me that life has so many options to choose from, there is no rule book. If you want the white picket fence, the 9-5 job, and the 2.5 kids, by all means, go for it. But “The American Dream” is A dream, not the only dream. You’re allowed to go outside of the norm and create your own life, one that YOU are happy with. It doesn’t matter what standards society has set or what other people think, do what makes you happy, and do what makes you feel fulfilled. I have no idea what my plans are for when this year is over and I’m finally realizing that that’s okay and that I don’t need to have my whole life mapped out, I’m allowed to just wing it. Hell, I’m allowed to do whatever I want because it’s my life, and you can do what you want with yours. Don’t let people tell you that you can’t do something or tell you that your dreams are unrealistic. We all have the ability to make our own decisions and there are many decisions to be made and that’s what makes life so beautiful, the fact that there are billions of us, and not a single one of us is living the same life as someone else. So don’t worry about the invisible standards and expectations set by whoever these people in “society” are, set your own. It’s only when you can start making choices for yourself that you can truly start living your own dream.